4 Days in and so good so far. :)

Alright I started this on Friday and Im offically four days in an doing good so far. I have been eating very healthy with lots of fruit and veggies, yogurt and fiber. Exchanged my 2% milk for an almond milk that is only 40 calories per serving. Also am drinking more water now too.

I've been working out about 20 minutes with DVD videos here at home. Plan to increase the workout as my stamia increases. I am really out of shape right now. Get tired pretty easily.

I am really focused this time. Im trying not to diet but change my food lifestyle completely. Im changing my relationship with food. No more is food going to be my crutch, drug or friend. It is fuel used to run my body and give me the energy, nutrients and vitamins I need to really live life.

I do reflect on different things to stay focused and driven. The first night was awful! The cravings to eat late at night came but I kept reminding myself of what a young girl on the tv show "I used to be fat" said. She said that after she got past the cravings for bad food she began to no longer crave it but instead crave good things to eat. I remind myself of that often. And, after just 4days I am already noticing it IS getting better.

I regularly watch shows on people who have been successful in their weight loss too. It is inspirational and helps me to remember my goals.

And, I reflect on the last negative thing said about my body by someone else. I had a friend ask me if I was a certain size which was larger than what I am. Why? She wanted to know if I had any clothes I could share with a mutal friend who had just had a baby. That was a blow......to think she looked at me and assumed by my shape or size to her eye that I would be the same size as a post pregnant woman. That really hurt. But, it motivated me to start this journey out of fatland and start this blog as well. I hope to one day tell her thanks for the jumpstart.

Fatland is not just my body I am trapped in but it is also the society we live in. Everywhere I turn this society is geared at consuming foods that are NOT healthy and DO NOT help one maintain a healthy body at all. What is worse is these "Food Bombs" that explode our bodies are so cheap and easy to get to. The good food that we need on the other hand IS more expensive and harder to come by. My grocery bill almost doubled when I went shopping for this new start. But I figure I AM WORTH IT.  I dont spend a lot of money on clothes, trips, jewelry, movies, or anything expensive so its time I spend it on me and the new healthy me I want to be.

So if your debating how expensive it is to eat healthy, and how it does take more time to prepare a meal rather than drive thru somewhere, take the time and spend the money. YOU ARE WORTH IT!