Welcome to my Journey

I just started a journey and you are most welcome to join me. Right now I am lost in Fatland. What is Fatland? Well, it is the place where I find myself now in my life. I just turned 40 and am trapped in Fatland. I am 5'7" and weight 170 lbs. I know for some of you out there you would argue with me that Im not fat. Especially if you are larger than I am. I am not judging anyone this size or larger. This has nothing to do with anyone else but myself and how I feel in my body. Each person much find where they need to be to be happy, content and feel good physically. I believe that varies from person to person. So, if you are 5'7" and weight 190 lbs and feel great about yourself than good for you! :) I am happy for you. You have found your happy weight. I havent yet.

I have been going through some depressing things over the past 4 years. I wont go into it because that is not what this blog is about. Needless to say, I am  comfort eater. Food is my drug that  have used to cope, escape and feel good again. But, those feelings are short lived because as all of us comfort eaters know, after the food high comes the guilt low. Which leads to yet another food "fix" and so the cycle starts all over again.

Lets talk about what I've tried so far:

Prepackaged Foods- I have tried special diet of lean cuisine, weight watchers and healthy choice frozen meals but that didnt last. Too much pasta, and burnout on eating the same things over and over again.

Food Deprivation- I have tried trying to cut out certain things like all sugars, or all sweets. That hasnt worked for me either. I ended up craving those things so badly I gave up.

Gym - I have tried joining a gym. One time I paid my fee and only went once. What a waste of money right?

Acai Berry Supplements- Tried these for about a month. Didnt notice any changes so jumped back off that bandwagon.

So here I am trying to figure it out. I know its going to take proper diet and exercise. I am going to try to brake my weight loss into smaller more reachable goals. My total goal loss is 35lbs. I want to weight 135lbs before I turn 41. I want to be fabulous in my forties! So join me with my journey. I turn 41 on July 14, 2011 so that gives me exactly 188 days to reach this goal.

Why 135lbs you ask? Thats what I weighed when I felt good, healthy and good about myself. Follow me and see how I do.